Around You

  Do you know her? I was in my fourth grade when I first saw her. She is beautiful which made a bit jealous. Her smile is just so pure. I spent most of my time with her. I loved her. But things did not continue to be lovely they took a turn when she got hurt by me accidently for which I was scolded badly by my mother. I started feeling rage and jealous for her. People around loved her so much that my presence went unnoticed. This made me feel less important. My rage and jealous disappeared over time. She annoyed me a lot of times and sometimes teasing her became my favorite way of getting back at her.  This is how our relation was for years. But few months of a year made me understand her, my perspective on her changed so much that she became my go to person. She is the comfort I craved for years. She is the sense of security my soul wants. I never experienced love the way she loves me. She loves me so much that her love showed me how to love myself. She is someone who I neede...

Am I bad?                              I am sitting on a bench, tears flowed down my face. I am feeling alone. I pain that is rushing from inside telling me no one understands you. You are the bad person, you are vulnerable. This pain is so deep, it's causing my heart ache. There is a loud cry, a child fell down. He is crying with pain, and his mom took him close to heart, hugged him and said "Nothing has happened to you, I am there" by cleaning the wound.                               I wish someone is there by me to tell "nothing is going to happen to you, I am there". All the people I knew flashed in my mind, I guess my mind is searching for someone who says that. I started observing my surrounds, maybe I am trying to find something more vulnerable than me to find comfort. But instead, I saw a beautiful lake which is painting another su...

  are you not understood? Do you think you are the one always wrong? then Hello friend, you are me. I was once a best friend to few, that friendship broke due to misunderstandings and miscommunication. It's been months, I thought I moved on. I said to myself it is just a friendship, yes, maybe it is the only one, which made u feel connected but it's fine. you will find friendship again. I waited, I thought the wound is gone until I saw all of them together enjoying, smiling and dancing. It made my heart tremble, I felt alone, I felt anger, I felt betrayed. I don't know why, but I felt worst. I cried for hours; my body was shaking every time I saw them. I was all alone and I felt deserted. No one is able to understand why I am taking this so deep to heart, I myself could not understand why I am crying? it took time for me to be truly happy while they are around. I blamed myself many times saying I was the one who is at wrong. When I remember the day, on which I was surrounde...