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Am I bad?

                             I am sitting on a bench, tears flowed down my face. I am feeling alone. I pain that is rushing from inside telling me no one understands you. You are the bad person, you are vulnerable. This pain is so deep, it's causing my heart ache. There is a loud cry, a child fell down. He is crying with pain, and his mom took him close to heart, hugged him and said "Nothing has happened to you, I am there" by cleaning the wound.

                              I wish someone is there by me to tell "nothing is going to happen to you, I am there". All the people I knew flashed in my mind, I guess my mind is searching for someone who says that. I started observing my surrounds, maybe I am trying to find something more vulnerable than me to find comfort. But instead, I saw a beautiful lake which is painting another sunset in itself. This will make me feel even worse for my vulnerability I thought. But it gave me calm, the cool breeze that came along surprisingly gave a warm hug. This universe gave me the comfort I needed. But the emotions came back when it turned dark, and the warm hug disappeared when the wind stopped. 

                              We all need a person who cares for us, who understands us but are we that person? Accepting the fact that I am bad person is hurting. But is it the fact? aren't we all? then should I be okay being bad?

                               Same as the lake and wind, a person can't be comforting all the time, they do not understand you all the time, they don't love you all the time.

This makes me feel even more lonely, like we all are. Can I never be good?

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