One Day...

                             One day I was sitting on my terrace, that is my favorite place always as a child. I love to see the boundless sky and the world around, little birds which flew in the evenings make my heart rest at peace always with their chirping sounds. Same as usual I am sipping my chai and looking the birds fly, watching how the sky is flaunting itself with colors, then I heard a loud cry. I ran downstairs and saw my sister crying. She is in front of her laptop looking at the results of IIT entrance examination. I saw the result, she got in. She cannot stop laughing and crying, I hugged her, said I am proud, then mom and dad came for work, and everyone is partying. Obviously, it's my sister's day, so I am invisible. I went back to the terrace, sat on the mat, closed my eyes, my tears started to flow taking me back to the day. 

                             I am alone at home, mom and dad went to work; sister is in school. Ishu called. Results are out. I am shivering and nervous, i checked the results and I did not get in. I did not get in. No IIT, No NIT. I am shaking. I am crying. I do not know what to do. My parents came, they knew the result ...

                             I am on the terrace, crying. No one speaks to me in home. Dad, is angry because I did not get in. I cried a lot, but no one came to me to say it's okay. I was terrified of my future. even dad, who has been my best friend do not speak to me. then I realized I am not important than getting into IIT. I do not want to live.

                            Tears don't stop, broken heart heals they say until it's your parents who broke it. Same day to different environments in my home, do I matter to them, do they still think I am not good enough? I was lost in thoughts.

                            Then she came searching for me, Ammu, my sister. She asked if I am okay. And said she wants me to be a part of her celebration. 

Ya, I went down acted like I am not hurt, enjoyed the party okay, pretended like I enjoyed it.

                            But I am truly happy my sister got in, my really sorrow is I am unable to see them as I say them before that day, I cannot get over that day.  The day that changed my loving parents into strangers, that day which sank so deep in my heart, that day killed the child inside me, Will I get over it?

Just a normal student in India...

but what makes me different I did not kill myself over a college admission, I aimed high, I believed myself.

One day changed many things, but that One day taught me many things. It's okay to not get in. It's okay to fail. 

One day changes a lot of things, but You is who have the power over it.